bob_28

goin' crazy, trying to tell myself to let it go.

2005-04-28T00:05:52Z

this week has sucked... welll kinda!
im in suchh a good mood usually.. and then i have these stupid times when i get like super super down all of the sudden, and then i think about it.. and i get happy again, and realize i have nothing to worry about.. but whooo knowsss.
theres only 88 days untill NORTH CAROLINA..(well actually an island offa south carolina.. but its the same thing) haha WIHT MY TWO BEST FRIENDSSS! :) definatly can NOT wait for that, we need it ;)
ive been talking to a lot of new people latley, i really like that.. getting close with old friends again, that again is good for sure!
half day tomarrow, definatly going otu with meghan, in majoor need of a girls day with her, b/c she always makes it better, and its been WAY to damn long!
no plans for the weekend yet.. WHO WANTS TO HANG OUT! :)

ive been doing a lot of thinking.. and i kinda wana get it all about, but then again, its soo easy to just keep it in, and pretend i am ok... makes it so everyone doesnt pester me and ask whats wrong. soo idk, blah!!

I got a BIG hug from my best pal Christopher Shane Iliff.. I LOVE HIMMMM!.. deffinatly has the best hugs ever.. "i just wana jump on him" hahahahahahah!

Got the Idea from Jasmineeee hehe

2005-04-25T15:40:52Z

...Leave a comment w/ Your name, and I will tell you one thing that I adore about you... I mean, If i talk to you, there has to be Something, Right?

crazy weekend.

2005-04-24T21:28:16Z

hm, friday kel and i went out to get some chineese for dinner.. and then back here to watch movies and stuff.. we got home from dinner at like 7, and by 845ish we were passssssed out! my dad came in at like 930 to chat, but insted he scared the living hell out of us cause he woke us.. haha so we just bullshitted aroudn for and hour or so.. and then fell back asleep.. we were sooooo tired.. haha, saturday we woke up at the asss crack of dawn, and layed in bed alll day long.. it was sooo relaxing! I was going to go to April Antics w/ Kel and Nat.. but that didn't work out cause my mom said that sense i wasnt feeling goood all day i shoudlnt go anywhere. so I went to my aunts and watched the notebook with her. today- sisters family came over for dinner and stuff, thats a good thing!!! I missed lillie sooo much, i dont like her not living heree!

my aunt braught us this box today.. filled with stuff from my g-ma.. i figured it was just simple junk like usual.. but this time it was like cards and stuff.. so i was looking thru it, and found that it was like cards that we made her on g-rents day and stuff in like pre-school and kintergarden.. so that got me down.. i talked to someone about something today, i thought i was ok but not that i think about it, it deffinatly got to me... but I gotta jst let it roollll off my back, nothing i can do about it. blahhh!

most deff. a shitty weekend. hopefull ill have a good week to make up for it!?

July 23-30 NORTH CAROLINA WITH AMY AND LISSY!!! we need this girls! :)

it always happens to me.

2005-04-21T21:49:40Z

blah.. the week has been rocky... monday/tuesday just boring and the usuall... then on wednsday my grama was in the newspaper, so that obviouly made my day shittier than no other.. and today i'm not even goign to get into. there is no point.

let's just say i hope it all ends out good.
*and keep Nick in your prayers!*

Seem'd to be a pretty good weekend, lets just hope it STAYS THIS WAY! :)

2005-04-17T22:40:50Z

Hmm... so thrusday was ALLLLLLRIGHT i guess.
Friday hung out with the sistie and aunttie allll day. then passed out early!
Saturday Babysit lilster all day, then Went to Lowellll for the night, one of my cosuins who lives in chicago was in for the night, so i deffinatly took advantage of that!! and then tiff came over to AK's for the night.. haha Priceless times out there.. let me tell you! GOTTA LOVE THE COCK PUSHUPPS AT MIDNIGHT! ;) I love you girls!
mm sunday--today. not doin anyyyyything. watched movies all day sofar, and now im doing homework and laying aroud!

My cousin did make a REAL good quote during dinner...
-If it's true, don't rush it. it will always be there-
I thought that was pretty damn good!! *hehe*

yeahhh im done now..
*things deff. seem to be looking UP! :):)

AMELIA--THAT DAMN WHORE..(with the deadly neck muscles!) SHE BETTER JUST WATCH HER BACK, B>A>W MIGHT COME AFTER HER! haha, I love you!

the ups and the downs.

2005-04-16T14:15:04Z

Now, I don't even understand what's going on in MYOWN life.. That is Pretty Phuckin Sad. :(

blahh.

2005-04-14T20:58:05Z

seems like everytime i make plans latley, they get fucked up... i guess i just give up on plans and go with the flow?
--so the news paper called and asked to do a story on my grama, thats like totally amazing, i can not wait ot see what htey do with all the info we are giving them, and they are putting her pic in there.. im sure ill put the link to the page in my info on IM, cause i love showing off how amazing she was, and how she helped so many people in so many ways... she was our queen! :):):):)
--soo proud of her, and it just makes me miss her even more. but im glad she is painfree-and stressfree in heaven. watching out for me, and still helping me along the way! :)

umm not to sure what im up to this weekend, hit up the cell if you wana do something! :):)

--keeping my hopes up, cause what ever is ment to be, will happen! :)

im going to have a good night, FINALLY! :)

2005-04-12T21:50:52Z

blah, haven't updated too much.. my weekend was probably the worst ive ever had.. don't really want to get into details on it.. but thanks to those of you who've been there for me thru it, couldnt ask for better friends, esp my girls! :)

--this week's been good.. yesterday was good, today was suppost to be wonderful yet turned out bad, again.
--jill,liz, and I have been getting real close, deffinatly a great thing, they crack me up, so many insiders allready...*NO, I LOVE NORA!* haha what a coooool kid;)
--found out my rents are going on a cruize on jan 29-feb5th. SOOO excited, they are leaving me either at my aunts, or having my cousin from chicago come and stay with me, either one will be flipping awesome, and my sister will be gone by then... HELLA partys here that week! ;)
--today's the 2nd month to the day that my g-ma passed away.. i can honestly say it hasnt really hit me yet, i mean yeah i am REALLY upset about it.. but i still havent come to realize she is gone... i still think i will be able to see her again, well i know i will when i pass too, but i mean it doesnt feel like i cant see her untill then, i still get the urge to call her, and then cry because i can't but i still feel that like the next family gathering she will be there.. and ijust need to face the facts that she wont..it really sucks losing the one person that you went to for everything and anything... even the bad, and even though she was 89, she knew more about me than my mom does.. god i miss her :(
--liek said up there my sister is moving out.. i mean i was ok with it untill i realized that lilile will have to go too, that is going to suck, im guan miss having her make my bad days good, and all the goodnight hugs and kisses, ughh, there goes the number two person in my life... but luckily i will see her everyweeken!!!
- the good side of them leaving, is i get to move my shit downstiars, and they are making the other half my dads little "sports bar" thingy that hes always wanted... so ti will be pretty cool, lillie gets my old room for when shes here on the weekend, thats good for her!!

au cas où je juste donner vers le haut sur l'essai égal ?

bob_28 @ 2005-04-10T20:51:00

2005-04-11T01:51:12Z

shit happens, lets just hope it all gets better, SOON!

umm yeah

2005-04-07T01:57:17Z

Last person to...
• Slept in your bed – me
• Saw you cry – myself.
• Made you cry – ummm
• Spent the night at your house - kel and spu i think.
• You shared a drink with – umm i cant remember
• You went to the movies with – a lot of people
• You went to the mall with – sistie
• Yelled at you - mom

Have you ever:
• Said "I love you" - yea
• Been to New York – nope
• Been to Florida – yeah
• Been to California – soon enough
• Dreamed something – i dream all the time
• Last time you went out of state – um a while.
• Things you like in a boy/girl -the way he treats me.
• Weirdest thing about you – i have a lazy eye..kinda.
• Do you have a boyfriend – j-allen.
• Favorite magazine –cosmo fosho!
• How many rings before you answer – depends where the phone is.
• Do you sleep with a stuffed animal – yes ma'am
• You bored? – yeah
• How many buddies are on – who cares
• Last movie you saw – a cinderella story
• Do you keep a diary – nope
• You have a secret you haven't shared with anyone – nah its all out in the open.

Who is…
• The sexiest person of the opposite sex - haha oh god.
• The weirdest person you know – lol i dkkk
• The loudest person you know – the girls<3
• Your close friends – kel spu amelia josh chris
• The person who knows the most about you – kel and josh
• Most overused phrase on IM – haha
• Take a shower every day – yupp
• You have any tattoos – one, maybe a second one in honor of the g-ma w/ the sistie
• Any piercings – ears n tummy

Favorite…
• Number - idk
• Color – pink
• Day – saturday !
• Month – nice weather
• Season – spring/summmer

In the last 24 hours have you:
• Cried – yes
• Helped someone –hmm i guess
• Said I love you – yeah
• Written a real letter – no
• Talked to an ex – yes.
• Missed an ex – nahh.
• Written in a journal – this.
• Had a serious talk – kinda
• Kissed someone – well in the last 48.. ha

spring breaks over in 8 hours and 4 minutes.

2005-04-03T21:01:04Z

hmm, so kel and spence came over lastnight. we played dress up!! and thennn just vedged, and watched ladder 49, hoooooollllyyyy shiiiiiit.. that is one freaking sad movie, let me tell you!
kel had to leave early, so when she left, joe called for sam..(hes the firefighter) it was RIGHT when the one guy fell into the building, so ofcourse we were tearing up.. and so i had to cry to joe and tell him how he cant be a fireman anymore. haha, it was fun.. then spu left at like 10, and my wonderful boyfriend suprised me with a blizzard at like 1030! :)
Today, ive been cleaning allll day, and josh is on his way over, we are guna just watch movies and im sure take a nap. but its sooo nice out!!! i love it! then we are seporating for dinner, and i think he is comming back over for extreem home makeover! :):)

so tomarrow is my last day of work, THANK GOD! i am soo glad i quit that shitty place. but now i need to search for a new one. haha.
my haircut is growing on me.. im starting to like it, the bangs can go, but i like the rest of it! :)
the backstreet boys are on the radio, with new songs... pretty freaking weird if ya ask me!
haha, this is realll random.
Josh has natural helpers from thursday-saturday.. :( sundays his bday, so i get to see him then, but im still guna be sad when hes gone. but i get my kel and spencer ;)
i think im going to stop blabbing now, and go laydown and wait for joshua to get here! :)

not a bad spring break, here in good ole VALPOOO!

2005-04-01T01:57:19Z

hmm, too much drama in the last few entries!! haha.
breaks been pretty good acutally. i've seen josh everynight, except tonight, BUTT I get to see him toamrrow night, all nightt!! :) I've talked to kel and spu just about everynight, thats DEFINATLY a REAL good thing, they are on their way home right now actually Saturday, Snugggle day with Kel, and Hopefully SPU!! haha.

umm idk if i uupdated after easter, but that was really good.. had a hard time with the whole g-ma situation, but its ok. shes in a better place watching me now! :)
I have been working for my uncle the past few days, so I am now quitting statefarm, its a fucking pain in my butt, and its to much for a teen.. forsure! my check was only 200, REALLY pissed me off.. thats freaking 3 weeks of work.. granted i called off 4 times. haha, ohh well.. Monday is my last day! :)

nothing elese to say, time for a job and movie night with my sister! :)

it's been a while!!

2005-03-27T22:03:20Z

Hm, so lastime I updated.. it had to of been Wednsday I think?
soo Thrusday Ash took me to the Awards Night thingy, we got 2nd year letter's and Aaron god MVP. Proud of him, but I personally think Josh should have gotten it, and I am not the only one. but thats ok, THenn we went to Schoops w/ Jon, Josh, Me, Ash, and Aaron... IT was pretty fun, got picked on for my GRILLED CHEESE AND PICKLES!!! it's soo good though. Josh and I offically became boyfriend and girlfriend that night.. it was peerfectt! :)
Friday, josh braught me home from school.. that was fun. then he came back over around 8ish, usual night, we watched a few movies, i fell asleep. haha.
Sautrday, easter w/ My family.. and then Josh came over, AGAIN. It was greattttt!
today--Actual easter. woke up to an egghunt with lillie!! hehe. and then Josh braught me and the family eater baskets.. that was beyond sweet. the cards made my mommy tear up, she likes him soo much, it's GREATTTT! he has to work tonight.. i get to see him again after he gets off work tonight, not for too long, but It will still be good!!:). tomarrow I get to after hes done working, and then again after I am, haha. Crazzzzzzzzy!

thats about all for now.. ill update again antoher day.

yay!

2005-03-23T12:33:57Z

hmm, monday just worked. Yesterday I called off, deffinatly did NOT feel like going in, so I went to work with my mommy, and then Joshua came over and we watched Napoleon and Dodgeball! Quite fun if you ask me.. and my "secret" got out.. but who cares.. It can not be changed, it happend, I am not going to stop my self from being a highschool girl, its typical... but who knows what the future will bring, if you were my REAL firends, you'd be happy for me being happy, and not go off on me for his sorrow...there's other girls out there also for him, im sure i will get called a bitch a few times for this, but tuff shit, its my feelings.

yeahhh.

2005-03-21T02:32:54Z

hmm, so this weekend was pretty good...
friday--kirk's with kel, then kel n' spenny stayed the night, got flipping tp'd.. and the odd part is, we SAW the person pull in, and just thought it was my sister comming home, not thinking it was 130, and she came home at flippin' 1130. haha ohh well.
saturday-- hung around all day, had plans w/ kel.. they fell through, so i had a cool friend over, watched a few movies.
today--went to nick's with my sister.. watched napoleon, white chicks, and stuck on you.. pretty much just napped alll dayy long, actually was quite relaxing, minus the 2,3, and 4 year olds that were running amuck all day. haha.

wrestling banquets this thursday, that should be fun.. kel and spence leave thursday, that SUCKS im going to be so lost with out those girls!!
one more week untill spring break, actually looking forward to it, eventhough all im doing is hanging out here. haha.

hmm i sure do love my girls!

2005-03-19T18:46:33Z

If you read this, even if i don't speak to you often, you must post a memory of me and you. It can be anything you want. It can be good or bad, just as long as it happened.

let the bullshit begin.

2005-03-17T02:01:34Z

Round Two. Don't think I can handle it Again.

Shitty week sofar, it seems to just be geting worse.. im glad that break is soon.. granted im not goign ANYWHERE. but the few that are home with me are goign to make it worth while. then hopefully it will be back to normal after were back in school. now its time to go get a good cry in, and start the homework.

what a life to take, what a bond to break.. ill be misssing you.

2005-03-15T03:23:01Z

blahh, work sucked today.. the bitchy boss TOTALLLY pissed me off.. i dont get my check tomarrow.. i have to wait untill the 31st granted it will be a 300$ check.. i wnat the freaking money NOWWW... bitch. haha

i got introubble today because of a certain someone, but its ok.. i talked to my mom about it.. and she let it go, and she still thinks the kids is alright, as long as they dont say that again, haha. (dumbass ;)

i fucking miss my grama, i really want her right now.. ever get in the mood when you just want a great big grama hug? and you just want to see her?... i know i spent asmuch time in hospice with her as i could, but it wasnt enough for me.. i wish i had more time with her.. i wish she could be here for me to grow up more.. i know she can see me, but i want her here, she is better off in heaven, but its just not fair.. just like w/ danny.. why take a twenty year old, why take good poeple and not the fuck-ups.. gah, im so emotional right now.. its bad.

Kelly, i love you so much sweetie, always here for you, smilllle!! :):)</p>

this weekend was super, untill today....:(

2005-03-14T00:11:03Z

blahh, so yesterday.. i had josh jon kel and spence over for dinner and a movie.. and then us girls had to be to spencers by 11.. so that wasnt go fun, but we will make up for it next saturday! :)

but today, lillie's birthday party.. zack came.. that actually wasnt good.. we arent on too good of terms right now, and that isnt good.. but i guess what needs to happen will happen, things must get worse before they get better, and all good things must come to an end.. blah.

this week will be balhh.. work mon-thurs.. i get payed on tuesday thats deffinatly good!! that means i WILL get my new cell this week/weekend.. and then like april first i will get my licence! so when the girls get back from FL i will deff. be carting their ass's around, their deffinatly my shining stars right now, couldnt make it with out you girls.. love you soo much!!!! and also i would like to thank antoher person for being here for me, but they will remain nameless.. b ut i think you know who you are.

wooo.

2005-03-12T21:04:22Z

This weekend has been sooo much fun, the best part is there is still more to come! :)
Hung out with the girls lastnight, that was a blasttttt. this morning, we realllllly wanted some cappuccino, and so our super favorite guy braught it to us, and hung out for a few hours.. then the girls left.. i had to clean a bunch, so i did that while trying to watch friday after next.. that seems pretty good. jon had to leave cuz my mom was on her way home.. so i cleaned more.
Tonight, the girls and I are suppost to hang out with josh.. cuz he said he would make us dinner to make up for lastnight. so that should be fun... maybe we can get more people to hang out with us, that would be fun!
tomarrow is Lillie's b-day party.. I get to see the boyfriend for that one!! :) I shall update after that is all over with I am sure..

Today, while sitting there talking to the gals and jon, i totally rememberd it is one month today, that my life changed forever.. I miss you so much gram, I really wish you were still here, I love you so much, and I can not wait to come and see you again. Love you and Miss you more than Anything. Hope You're doing well up there!!! :)